Sunday, August 25, 2013


I try and keep my blog posts pretty happy and sweet for the most part. But lately I've been feeling weighed down by my emotions and sometimes you just gotta get it out. So basically, if you're not interested in things getting real heavy around here, then this is your queue to leave. 

Change (\ˈchānj\) : to make different in some particular : alter; to make radically different :transform to give a different position, course, or direction to

I am definitely not one to adapt well to change. I actually hate it. If I could, I would stomp my feet until I could have things done my way and and how I like them. Am I being mature? No. But honest? Yes. I can't go with the flow. Or take things as they come. I like things to be planned out and I like to know exactly what is going to happen. I know, I'm not very exciting. So change has never been my friend. Especially if its not change that I'm actually contributing. 

I just don't do well with change. I don't. For instance, when I turned 18, I literally cried on my bed all afternoon because I was upset that I was becoming an adult. It was a rough birthday. I guess most kids use this new freedom to go out and buy cigarettes or porn, but I just moped around and watched Peter Pan because I felt like he was the only person that understood me. In the last few months, I've been dealing with a lot of change. Most of my friends are either engaged/happily married, moving, or go to college. Now, don't get me wrong. I'm so happy for all of the people in my life that are growing and experiencing new adventures. 

I fee like I'm being left behind even though I know that my time for an adventure isn't quite ready yet. In the last few months, I've been really struggling with this cloud of depression. I think I do a pretty good job of hiding it from a lot of people. Keeping a happy face and saying "I'm doing great". But everyday is such a struggle to be happy and feel fulfilled. Most days, all I want to do it drive to a hotel far away and stay in a room and hide from everyone and everything. But I know that's not a solution even though I want it to be. I struggle to be present on a daily basis. I'm always worrying about the future and concerned about the "what ifs" from the past. I'm a control freak and I never knew that until now. 

So I hope at least this far in my post you have noticed that I've dyed my hair red. Yeah, its not a huge deal. But its a big thing for me. I've always kept my hair blonde. From Gwen Stacy to Mary Jane. It was a change that I wasn't sure I would like, but wanted to have. It's my change. No one else can control this but me. 

Life would be comfortable if I stayed in my hometown where I would have safety and security in basically every aspect of my life. But I know I wont be truly happy if I do. So here's to change. Even though she can be a bitch. 

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

I was never scholarly.

Dress: H&M (Old) // Chambray: Target // Necklace: Francesca's // Shoes: Chinese Laundry // Bag: Gap

I realized I wear this dress more than I think I do. I mean I already blogged it like 2 (here & here) other times and I haven't blogged for very long...It's been in my closet for years, and I guess it really is a staple that's been around for a while. 

I feel like this outfit is very "back to school". But if you know me, you know that I'm not really a school person. My senior year in high school, I probably skipped school more than I attended. Obviously a pro. And I'm basically Ferris Bueller. I remember pretending to be my mom and calling in sick. But instead of taking a trip to the city, I just went to target. Also, can we talk about Sloane's jacket in that movie? I mean. Perfect. 

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Clear Eyes, Cute Shoes, Can't lose.

Chambray: Target // Jeans: J. Crew Factory // Shoes: New York & Co (on sale!) // Watch: Fossil

I have been searching far and wide for the perfect chambray. And of all places Target would have it. I don't know why it took so long for me to figure that out. It fits well and matches everything. It's definitely become a staple in my closet. 

Let me just be another annoying person that says "I can't believe summer is almost over!" But for real. Its going by so quickly. But on the plus side, this means all of my favorite tv shows will be back soon or have already started! Breaking Bad anyone!? I wont spoil the premier for you if you haven't seen it yet, BUT IT WAS SO GOOD. So if you haven't started it yet, then where are your priorities? 

Oh this is my new mantra: 
"Clear Eyes, Cute Shoes, Can't Lose"
But seriously, got these bright loafers the other week for $10 at NY and Co. Go! They might be there still!   

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Will I be the girl with the dragon tattoo....on her face?

Dress: H&M (old) // Jacket: Gap // Belt: Thrifted // Scarf: Target (old) // Shoes: Chinese Laundry (similar)

Okay. So I totally haven't been able to find the charger for my camera (typical). So these past posts have been used with an iPhone. I'M REALLY SORRY YOU GUYS. Who knows, maybe one day I'll get my act together and actually be a normal, functioning adult. But today, I'm gonna go get an iced coffee and binge watch LA Ink. My priorities are really in place. Maybe next post, I'll have a really cool dragon tattooed to my face though? Someone watch me so I don't let me make rash decisions.

Monday, August 5, 2013

4. Bon Look Glasses// Bonnie & Clyde

How was your weekend? I spent my sunday night eating Ben & Jerry's (favorite!) and watching LA Ink while I online window shopped. I know, I know, I'm livin' the dream you guys. Try not to be too jealous. Also, these glasses. I mean. I have perfect 20/20 vision. But I have no shame. 

Also, incase you're having the monday blues like I am, watch this. I literally could not stop laughing. 

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Stripes and a jean jacket.

Jacket: Gap // Dress: American Eagle // Boots: Target // Bracelet: Francesca's 

So I've beens sitting here trying to find something witty and exciting to say. But its about 10 AM and I haven't had coffee yet. I just got this bracelet the other day and I'm really digging it. I usually don't wear bracelets because I have the dangling of it and I always end of taking them off. But this one is small, simple and I like it. Also, you guys get the privilege to see my favorite mug. I'm not much for words today. So happy weekend, y'all!